By Daniel A. Olivas
[Note: On September 30, 2020, a funeral Mass was held at the Mission Basilica San Buenaventura in honor of my father who passed away after a long illness. The details of his remarkable life of service to his family, religious community, and country are recounted in this beautiful obituary that my mother wrote. Below, I reprint the remarks I gave at the Mass.]
Most of us know the many qualities and talents of my father, Michael Augustine Olivas. He was a man of faith, someone who cherished his family and friends, a war veteran, and a voracious reader.
Pop did not read narrowly because he was not a narrow man. Complex and challenging ideas did not scare him. He read books on religion and politics, and he loved fiction and poetry.
Perhaps it would not surprise many of you to learn that Pop loved to write. Not only did he write for his job at RTD, but when he was a young man while working in a factory and starting his family, Pop wrote fiction and poetry.
Sadly, he never got published. Pop was ahead of his time, and I have little doubt that had he been born in 1962 instead of 1932, his creative writing would have been published and read by many. So, the fact that I became a writer—when not practicing law—delighted Pop.
Not surprisingly, Pop and Mom inspired many of my stories and poems. One poem in particular is specifically about Pop’s desire to become a published writer. The poem was inspired by a book reading I did about dozen years ago at a bookstore in Sylmar called Tía Chucha’s:
Papa Wrote
The crowd at Tía Chucha’s
was sparse but smiling,
encouraging, waiting for
me to read a story or two.
I asked them to wait a few
minutes longer because my
father was late, and he had
promised to attend. And so
we waited in awkward
silence, the espresso machine’s
hissing offering the lone
commentary.
And we waited,
and waited.
So we had to start. I opened
my book and read slowly,
assuredly, my words filling
these strangers’ minds.
Halfway through, the front
door creaked open and my
Papa nodded, found a chair
in back. I smiled and everyone
knew who this man was.
I finished the story,
a gentle clapping
the final punctuation.
Time for Q&A I said.
A young man raised
his hand, asked a kind
question, a softball,
easy to answer.
My father then stood,
hands behind his back,
as I noted to the audience
that this is the man I had
been waiting for.
And then Papa said:
“I used to write, too.”
The audience nodded,
smiled, not knowing
where this was going.
Beads of perspiration
covered my upper lip,
my face frozen with
uncertainty.
“But it was trite,”
he continued.
“Nothing important.”
He waved his hand,
palm out, as if to
wipe away the past,
to make certain we
understood.
Papa paused, cleared
his throat. “Nothing
like what you write.”
“I wish I could read
your stories,” I said.
Softly, he answered:
“I burned them all.”
He smiled, without
sadness, and sat.
My Papa wrote, once,
long ago. He wrote
stories. Stories I will
never read. Stories I
will never know.
Though this poem ends the way it does, I must add this caveat: Even though Pop destroyed his written stories and poetry, he shared with us on a daily basis the story of his life and the expression of his love. And those are the gifts that we celebrate today.
3 comments:
I'm so sorry for your loss, Daniel.
It's great that you made him proud and vice versa! This is a rare gift between son and father that I'm sure you'll always cherish and pass down generations of proud Chicanos...
Alvaro Huerta
Daniel, My sincere condolences to you and your family. He sounds like he was a man of his time and yet ahead of it too. What a gift to have his stories and to honor his memories as you do with your words.
Thank you, both. We were lucky to have him for as long as we did.
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