Do you know
where your umbilical cord ended up after you were born? I often imagine mine in some red
plastic-lined hazardous waste bin.
Later, a hospital worker either incinerated it or the shriveled cord
ended up in a landfill somewhere in the Hollywood area of Los Angeles—near
Kaiser Hospital on Sunset, where I was born. Isn’t that what hospitals do with umbilical cords—at least
maybe what they did with mine after I was born? I just finished reading Reyna Grande’s The Distance
Between Us and Luis Alberto Urrea’s Into the Beautiful North.
I will be teaching both of these books later this semester and in my
re-reading, I was jotting down notes.
As usual, I notice things I didn’t catch during the first or second
reading. This time it was the
umbilical cord in both these books.
Into the Beautiful North by Luis Alberto Urrea |
In The
Distance Between Us, Reyna Grande describes how the women in
her familia buried her umbilical cord right after her birth, and how that cord
bound her to Mexico, and the place of her birth.
The Distance Between Us by Reyna Grande |
In Luis Alberto Urrea’s Into
the Beautiful North,
when Nayeli and her cohorts get ready to leave to “Los Unaites” to bring back
men (a la the film, “The Magnificent Seven”), their families remind them that
their umbilical cords are buried right there, in their homeland of Tres
Camarones. They must remember their cords. It is what connects them to their home. Therefore, it is imperative that they
return.
a kale plant |
I have often
told myself that the day my mother dies, my umbilical cord to Mexico will be
severed. She has always been my
connection to Mexico, teaching me the family history starting with the Lerma
and Sanchez familias en Guanajuato to the Rodriguez and Velazquez en Coahuila
and others in Michoacan (including the Montes familia). Slowly, however, we lose these
connections. The umbilical cord still attached to the newly born is thick,
purple red, pulsing with life.
Lately, medical doctors have been publishing articles on the importance of
waiting to cut the cord—allowing the pulsing to wane on its own before it is
cut. There is still much nutrition
to transfer. Was mine cut too soon?
Was yours?
Kale drying |
Right now is the
harvest season (the cutting!) and the latest news was the coming of the
frost. One must either cover the
vegetables (with a sheet) or harvest.
I decided to harvest.
Filled up six bags with kale |
I
went out with all my gardening implements. This year I had an amazing, very healthy crop of kale
plants. I had bought little tiny
spindly kale plants last spring, not expecting much. Each was barely a slip of a shoot. But I planted them all, and ended up with almost ten huge
kale plants. They brought me much
joy this summer just watching them grow and seeing how hardy they are. Their trunks thicken and each ridge on
the trunk shoots out a strong branch of tightly curled kale. At the end of the
harvest, I had filled up multiple bags of kale. Then I washed and set them out to dry. Between correcting
papers and writing, I coated kale leaves with garlic infused olive oil,
sprinkled seasoning on top, and placed them in the oven. In 20 minutes time, they transformed into
what is called “kale chips:” crunchy, delicate, green curly leaves. So much more nutritious than potato
chips.
harvesting the kale |
I also harvested
what was left of the basil, the cherry tomatoes, the poblano chiles, and those
three pumpkin calabazas that had grown all on their own (what’s called a
volunteer plant). As I neared the end of the harvesting, I could feel the
temperature drop, the chill of the breeze, the crisp cool that marks
autumn. It’s a beautiful time—but I
was also sad. Soon, the garden
won’t even look like one. It will
be frozen, at times covered in snow.
All the branches, the withering stalks placed in the compost bin will
transform to rich soil.
Between
harvesting and thinking about umbilical cords, I stopped to watch my
semi-domesticated cat, Chulo. He
darted around the backyard, batted at some of the branches I’d throw nearby,
and meow at my activities.
Almost ready for the oven |
kale chips ready to eat-- |
Chulo
was born in the backyard almost a year and a half ago—he’s from a feral cat
colony that has since disappeared.
The mother has occasionally been spotted across the street in my
neighbors yard, but has never officially returned. She will not have kittens anymore. In fact, the entire
colony will not (including Chulo).
While they were all still here, I trapped them and took them to the vet
to get fixed. It’s a program
called “catch and release.” A cat
rescue co-op named “The Cat House” provides one with humane cat traps (the
traps are ingenious), then they make arrangements with a local vet to spay or
neuter the cats and give them shots.
I was lucky and was able to get the entire colony “fixed.” Chulo’s two brothers are since gone and
I continually hope that they’ve been taken in by loving individuals. Chulo’s birth remnants are definitely
part of the soil on the southwest corner of the backyard, near the bird
feeders. And not too far from
where he was born, I buried my two cats that I brought with me from Los
Angeles. The most recent one buried
there is Ceniza, who died last June. She was 17, which is a good long life for
a cat. Many years of memories are buried with her in my backyard.
Before coming to
Nebraska, I was not much of a gardener or had any contact with feral cats. Since moving here, I have come to know
the seasons, have grown a number of vegetables and herbs: tomatoes, asparagus, broccoli, corn,
calabasas, chiles (jalapeño, poblano, anaheim), basil, stevia, chard, arugula,
etc. So much of what I’ve recognized here regarding the land and seasons,
reminds me of Mexico. I often think about how a good section of Mexico is on
the central time zone, like Nebraska. Only a small portion of the country of
Mexico is not on central time:
Baja California Sur, Sonora, Chihuahua, Sinaloa, and Nayarit, are on
Mountain time. Baja California
(north) is on Pacific time. Where my family is from in Mexico—they came from
Central Time. Thousands of years
ago, the tribes from Mexico would travel north to trade with the peoples who
lived in what we now call the Cahokia Mounds, “the largest and most complex
archeological site north of the great Pre-Columbian cities in Mexico” (click here for more information).
Archeologists believe that at its peak, Cahokia had a population over
1200. Did they practice
umbilical cord burials? Sometimes I imagine a thousand umbilical cords tucked
into the mantle of the earth, looking like gold veins.
Chulo on the deck |
I have read that
in some sections of Jamaica, burying the umbilical cord is practiced (click here). Perhaps it is not uncommon for most
peoples or maybe, as with many things Mexican (music, food, customs) we continually trace origins to Africa. Reyna Grande’s memoir and
Luis Alberto Urrea’s novel, however, make it clear that burying the umbilical
cord ties you to that specific land literally and metaphorically. The Mexico
earth swallows you and you are forever tied.
I love the metaphor and sometimes viscerally feel such connections. And yet, I want to always believe that "land" is not mine. Also, not everyone can be
tied to one specific place. We are
too fluid, too nomadic, our livelihoods are such that we are forced to leave or
we cannot live, especially in this time of various global and transnational oppressions.
To claim a place of one’s own can be so audacious—as if land or anything can be
owned. Sure—you can temporarily be
there, as I have been temporarily living in Nebraska. But I was also temporary in Los Angeles, in Mexico (summers with mi familia), in Spain (where I lived for almost a year), in Oregon (where I taught English to migrant farmworkers and witnessed the many different ways they negotiated their distance away from all they knew).
I suppose one could claim a space of where one would wish to belong. I know I continually do that.
And then I think
of Gloria Anzaldúa who wrote:
“With her scythe I cut the umbilical cord shackling me to the past and
to friends and attitudes that drag me down. Strip away—all the way to the bone. Make myself utterly vulnerable.”
Coyolxauhqui |
Anzaldúa’s words
are a powerful statement of new consciousness, or “border thinking,” “. . . a change
in the way we perceive reality, the way we see ourselves, and the ways we
behave” (102). Her words remind me
of Barbara Carrasco’s art—specifically “untitled” from 1976 where an umbilical
cord is slim yarn but it is connected to a knitted ball and the “mother” is
there, tied oppressively to a knitted ball. The knitting needle is suspended between both. The knitting needle can separate and
also enfold one closer. It’s a
delicate balance and Carrasco, like Anzaldúa encourages detachment and a reconfiguration. “Make myself utterly vulnerable.”
"Untitled" by Barbara Carrasco |
The writer,
Barry Lopez, says that when he readies himself to write, he must be completely
vulnerable or he must not attempt it.
Vulnerability, he says, is what honestly connects the writer to the
reader. Vulnerability is an
emptying of self.
In her essay,
“Now Let Us Shift,” Anzaldúa takes the image of Coyolxauhqui to speak of
transitions. On the literal level, she is remembering her hysterectomy. She uses that memory to write the
following:
Knowing that
something in you, or of you, must die before something else can be born, you
throw your old self into the ritual pyre, a passage by fire . . . After
examining the old self’s stance on life/death, misma/otra,
individual/collective consciousness, you shift the axis/structure of reference
by reversing the polarities, erasing the slash between them, then adding new
aspects of yourself . . . You shed your former bodymind and its outworn story
like a snake its skin . . . After dismantling the body/self you re-compose
it—the fifth stage of the journey, though reconstruction takes place in all
stages . . . Your identity has roots you share with all people and other
beings—spirit, feeling, and body make up a greater identity category. The body is rooted in the earth, la
tierra itself. You meet ensoulment
in trees, in woods, in streams.
The roots del árbol de la vida of all planetary beings are nature, soul,
body. (561)
chard |
After filling up
the bags with the harvest, I raked the soil and cleared it from kale and poblano
chile roots, The garden began to
look like the barren spot from last spring right before planting. The asparagus
and cherry tomato plants stayed, their seeds eventually buried in the garden. They’ll come up again in
April/May. Each year, though, they
appear differently. Nothing is
ever the same.
So I began this
blog post asking you if you knew the whereabouts of your umbilical cord. Perhaps you may want to use your
imagination. “Reframing the old
story,” writes Gloria Anzaldua, “points to another option besides assimilation
and separation . . . An image of your tío’s dying orange tree comes to mind,
one still possessed of a strong root system and trunk. Tu tío grafted a sturdier variety of
orange to it, creating a more vigorous tree.”
In Reyna Grande'a memoir, and Luis Alberto Urrea's novel, the individuals in those books struggle to make meaning of continual, sometimes brutal change and separation/reunions. They leave us to witness and consider our own "ombligos." May this "autumn
into winter" be a significant and meaningful transition for you, dear La Bloga
reader!
8 comments:
beautiful and powerful writing. Stirring the deepest parts of me. Thank you.
Absolutely gorgeous and heartfelt essay about identity, culture, belonging and life transitions. Thank you for this, Amelia.
As usual, Amelia, you have given us a writing full of power and grace to illuminate another hidden part of culture and tradition to help us reclaim it, each in our own way. Thank you for your perception and skill with language, hermana!
i was looking at my butternut squash and your volunteers sprang to mind. what are they like? are you planting that seed?
mvs
Thank you all for your kind comments. And Em--check the blog again: i just posted a picture of the calabazas on today's blog. So re-check!
Thank you all for your kind comments. And Em--check the blog again: i just posted a picture of the calabazas on today's blog. So re-check!
Thank you Amelia, for this deeply moving and insightful post!
those are beauties, las calabazas.
mvs
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