Michael Sedano
I wonder how tough this young Kabul woman has it. This woman who shows me her lovely fifteen years old face, polished nails bright red, and the green eyes of a 1985 National Geographic cover. A youth already betrothed to a man three times her age, a friend of her father’s, luckily with only one wife, she whispers. Leaning on the noise of a building’s façade to hide her dismay, or protect herself from viewers, she pushes her chaperone’s hands as they try to pull the burka back. At home family prepares Halwa and praises God for the engagement. Nervous, asks about life in Europe, if I am allowed to dance until sunrise, how often women die in childbirth, whether I am married, and if my husband beats me. With the last question her smile disappears. I survey the snowy ridges circling us like rapacious birds starving for prey in that frigid December morning. He’s a good man, maybe he’ll let me go back to school, she says frowning.
I think about her often, her beauty, youth, pray fate will treat her with enough benevolence to raise healthy, educated children. She wouldn’t have had a chance, untrained as she was, but her daughters did before the Taliban. Now icy clouds of misery engulf the city, women sit around clanky kerosene stoves without kerosene, debate the dangers of defying the jailers to have a life of their own, or else.
a bright light
fades fast
under the burka
Nancy Murphy
All that Bergamot*
By Nancy Murphy
We are on our way from LA to Zion,
the one in Utah. We stop in Hemet,
the desert, a Starbucks. I need a midday
lift. A man sits in a battered wheelchair
by the entrance, no hat. It’s 102 degrees.
His clothes an assembly of fabrics
the color of an espresso he can’t afford.
Sunburnt leathered face, patches
of a beard, he was a blonde once. He was
a lot of things once. I motion Brian
to avoid walking past him. It’s just
a reflex. Not personal. Inside the cool
café I order my usual–tea latte
with English Breakfast tea, not
Earl Grey (all that bergamot!),
soy milk for its sweet vanilla traces,
one Splenda, something I hope
doesn’t kill me one day if they find
it causes cancer. But I’ve tried to quit
and I just can’t. As I wait I notice
how I’m still able to make eye contact
with strangers even with our masks on.
I think, we are all learning to use
our eyes more. Humans are a wonder.
The man outside the door comes into my mind.
No one looks him in the eye. Sympathy floods
me, and some shame. But what does that buy?
Even so, I resolve to give him something,
and to ask him something. I say nothing
as we exit. He turns towards us, the usual pitch
beginning, Hey do you….I lurch forward,
drop some bills into his lap so I don’t
have to touch his hands, because, well
covid of course. Then I pause, lean in, take in
his face. I say, What’s your name?
He startles, squints, replies, What’s my name?
I turn quickly now with a small wave,
mumble goodbye, hurry on to the car,
flushed from the heat, the moment.
Brian stands waiting, holding the door
open for me, a habit he can’t break,
a habit that makes me impatient. I’m
ungrateful like that. Then I hear
a voice calling out behind me.
Floyd. My name is Floyd.
* The characteristic flavor of Earl Grey tea comes from the addition of bergamot.
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